I'm happy to see this update, just because I rarely know what's going on in your life. I hope your bad coworker will be booted or quit soon, A: so you can work full time/year round, and B: to benefit the kids at the center and less headaches for M and C as superiors/managers. As far as people getting to know themselves, I feel like we're all works in progress. Some people take to things more easily than others, but everyone has challenges and roadblocks of some sort. I think you'll get there in your own good time, you don't have to beat yourself up. I definitely did that in my early 20's, because it did take me so long to figure myself out (and I'm still in the process of setting my adult life in motion). I'm glad you'll be staying close to Nana during this time. Despite some people in your life being not as supportive as they should, I know you have people around you who love and encourage you. That's what counts. I'm one of those people too, even though I don't get to see or talk to you as much as I want to or should. I love you so much, it's so good to know what's going on. I want to communicate with you more. <3